devout individualism


decry infidels,
heretics claiming we should
care for each other.

by howard

September 10th, 2008

subficial



I believe in the
importance of underneath,
the things most won’t see.

image: photobunny

by howard

September 1st, 2008

Posted in haiku

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more than me



I am not the me,
not the me you thought I’d be,
not the one to set you free
and not the one you once believed
would stem the tides of seas.

I am more than me,
not the one you had foreseen,
but just like you I had a dream –
a delicate contingency –
depending on a “we.”

image: Untitled blue

big picture



we are the jigsaw,
reliant on each other
for our destiny.

image: James Jordan

zero-sum



it’s been years since I
felt the need to simplify.
need to simplify.

image: Children at Risk Foundation

by howard

August 23rd, 2008

continuum



mourning is for those
who wholeheartedly believe
there is no reprise.

morning is the time
hopeful souls rely upon
just before the dawn.

image: eggman

by howard

August 18th, 2008

rings


“How is it I remember
knowing that I would live forever?
Isn’t it strange
how truth can change?”

- Toad the Wet Sprocket

Before I get muddled in contemplation, I want to send an acknowledgement to my mother, who, 36 years ago today, completed what probably remains to this day the most harrowing 28-hour stretch of her life. Not only that, but she did it without drugs. And at the end of that ordeal all she had to show for it was a screaming baby boy. But bless her heart, that was exactly what she wanted.

And so here I am.

I quoted the lyric at the top of this post for a reason. It’s one that’s been rattling around in my head since I first heard it over a decade ago - at a point prior to my realization that I wouldn’t live forever. Like many other people who were once young, I dreaded losing the illusory cloak of invincibility. I thought it would be so depressing to come to grips with such a passive-aggressive foe like mortality. Surprisingly, it hasn’t been.

To be honest, I’ve led a pretty charmed life. I’ve probably reaped a good bit more than I’ve sown. With the realization of life’s finite nature, I’ve been able to see this more clearly.

I’ve always been a melancholy person, but I don’t wallow like I did when I thought the world was owed to me and had the right to demand nothing from me. I appreciate more now, a trend I hope continues into the future.

by howard

July 2nd, 2008

Posted in scrawl

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